It is possible I seem like a very confident, secure person. I often stand up and say what I am thinking. I bravely forge forward into areas in which I have no clue what I’m doing. But I’m still scared. Insecure. Most of the time.
I’ve learned to embrace this fear and work with it. A lifetime of habitual procrastination has taught me that if you hold on you can survive just about any self-made crisis, but that doesn’t erase the feeling of fear when I do something I haven’t tried before.
And I have a very hard time trusting my instincts when it comes to new endeavors. What you see me doing is a small fraction of what I secretly want to try.
The challenge for me is that when I have a gut feeling, I’m nearly always alone. I float ideas to see if other people think they are good, but they don’t. So I back off. Over and over and over. But looking over my lifetime of insecurity – I wonder. What would it be like if I just went ahead and trusted myself? What if I didn’t wait for someone to tell me my work was good enough, my idea had merit, my plan might work?
Lately I’ve just been going with my instincts and even though I’m braced for the inevitable failures, things seem to be working out okay. So, I’m trying to trust that inner voice a little more each day.
What is your gut telling you to do?