Why I Fail At Everything

This post isn’t going to go over well with a few of my friends, because they will argue that I’m succeeding. But I’m not. I’m failing. I’m failing constantly.

I’ll explain.

A week ago, on Monday night, I was up past midnight, working to get Episode 4 of Leap finished. I know I’m supposed to be working with a buffer, but I’m not, and I know I should be at least working ahead, but apparently I’m not.

Then came the moment of realization, the kind you feel in the pit of your stomach. There was just no way. I was going to miss my deadline.

It’s a self-imposed deadline. I set it. There are no consequences for missing this deadline. Except the profound feeling of being a big failure.

Why do I keep doing this? Why do I always feel so pressed? So behind? So in over my head? All the horrible feelings of self-doubt and frustration come crashing down on me. When do I get to the point where I am winning at this sort of thing? When does it get easy?

Then it hit me.

Unless you are stagnant, failure can’t be conquered. It must be embraced.

What I’m doing with Leap is completely new and very challenging for me. This is the first time I’ve fully finished a story. I’m drawing all of it. I’m churning out more than five fully rendered panels a week where I normally did one. I’m imagining and drawing everything in the story. I’m designing characters and magic and intricate plot elements. I’m coloring and finishing the pages. I’m posting and promoting. While keeping up fairly well with the rest of my busy life.

And if I get good at this? If I get to where I don’t miss any deadlines and don’t feel pressured anymore?

I’ll just start a bigger challenge.

So I’m always going to fail. And I’m just going to have to get comfortable with that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, because that is the feeling that gets me where I want to be.

Take A Leap

I used to be an adrenaline junkie. I took risks and did things that gave me a thrill, like the time I jumped out of a plane because I was afraid of heights.


But the struggle of life changed me into someone who was afraid. Afraid to take risks. Afraid to put myself out there. Like Nina, the character in my story, I sat on the floor for a really long time, paralyzed by all the potential risks.
Sometimes you can’t take small steps in the direction you want to go. You have to leap. You have to be willing to face the thing that you are afraid of to move forward. For me, right now, that leap is in finally releasing art that matters. Stories that come from deep within that the world may very well reject. But they are mine to tell, and there is an undeniable thrill to giving them life. Posting the first episode of my graphic novel gave me the same feeling as sitting at the edge of an open door of an airplane at 9,000 feet.
I hope you enjoy the stories, whether they are little funny comics from my life or deeper, mysterious stories from my imagination. And I hope you reach out and let me know if they speak to you in some way. I’d love to hear from you.

We Should All Be Artists

Here’s an excerpt from my comic collection, “My Mom Is An Artist.”

When I was seven, a nice lady asked me if I wanted to be an
artist when I grew up. Confused, I replied, “I am an artist.” An
artist was a person who did art. I did art. I was an artist. But
some concepts are more difficult for adults to grasp than children,
and three decades later I am still learning how to say with
confidence, “I am an artist.”

The day before I drew my first comic in 2010, I was not an artist.
I was not doing art, and I hadn’t in a very long time. At thirty-
seven, I was a mom with a baby and a toddler (a job I had
long wished for), and I had an identity crisis of epic proportions.
As two tiny faces looked up at me, I was filled with doubt. How
could I help them grow and find success, when I couldn’t follow
my own dreams?

I have always believed that everyone has a God-given purpose
in life, but though I had some talent, my creativity never seemed
like a significant contribution to the world. So I spent twenty
years wandering in the wilderness of ideology, doing everything
but what, deep down, I knew I really wanted.

In the Icarus Deception, Seth Godin says,

Art is personal. Art is untested. Art is intended to connect.

As a child, I did this naturally. My art was very personal, untested (for me) and it’s purpose was to communicate. Along the way, I lost the sense that I had anything at all to say, because I went through a crisis of personality. I tried to fit in to the world around me so I could find friends and avoid ridicule. (Junior High is brutal, ya’ll.) I continued this pattern of trying to blend in for the next two decades. It made life a little easier.

I lost the ability to connect with other people through art. I was simply pursuing some skill with what I saw as my talent. The comic brought me back because its only purpose is to connect. It doesn’t matter how well you draw a comic. It matters if it resonates with at least one other person on the planet.

Connections come from something genuine inside you reaching out to someone else. It’s something we should all be doing.

Aren’t you tired of pretending you can’t make a difference? 

We should all be artists.

Nina Is Nothing, And Everything Like Me

I’ve always told stories about my life. We all do. We might tell them to our BFF or a stranger in the checkout line at the grocery store, but we’re always telling stories in funny or dramatic ways. Of course, many of the stories I tell about myself are in comic form.

Leap is different. It’s a complete story, and it’s not about me. I’ve worked on stories for decades, but I’ve never finished them because I was so personally invested. They were too important to me to get wrong. Too emotionally big to risk failure.

Leap is just a story. A story with magic and mystery and murder. There’s not much magic, mystery, or murder in my life.

Along the way, however, the main character, Nina, started to take on familiar elements. Nina is a young woman who finds an ancient source of power, which causes some terrible things to happen. But Nina’s biggest problem is herself. She’s given away her own power. She’s let people take power from her. She struggles to make decisions.

How many people do I know who are Nina? Myself, sure. But beyond that I can’t even count. Some have grown and taken back their power. Some are perpetually stuck in a cycle of letting others take from them. And hopefully, in the people that read this story, there will be someone with whom that concept resonates, and maybe even subconsciously, it will help them realize that they are strong enough to take a leap, spread their wings, and fly, even if they aren’t sure where they will land. 

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I’m Finally Putting Together a Collection!



For years I’ve had people ask me to put my comics in a book, but I couldn’t figure out the best way to do it, so I put it off, thought about it, worked on it a little, then put it off again. Now, after seven years of making comics, I’m finally going to gather up the best and put them together.

My journey through webcomics is so much more than the effort to be funny or meaningful. It’s my journey through the process of figuring out how to believe in myself and my art. It isn’t always easy to do the thing deep down you know you are meant to do, and I hope to share a little of the emotional path I took while making the comic along with the best panels.

I’ll be posting updates all next month, so check back!

Comic Updates

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I’ve made the decision to only post updates on Webtoons and Tapastic from now on, so if you’re looking for new comic updates, you’ll have to go there! I do also post to social media, usually within a day, so if you follow on Twitter or Facebook you can also keep up.

I’m really enjoying Webtoons as a comic platform. The response has been very encouraging, and I’m loving getting to interact with more people. Comments here on the website have always been scarce. If you enjoy webcomics, or are already into LINEWebtoons, please subscribe to me there and give me a good rating and some likes! It really helps my exposure.

Ocean Diver



Sketchy colour collective piece this week in shades of cadet blue. I might finish this someday because I rather like it. I’m not sure why I’m stuck on ocean themes right now. Maybe I need to figure out how to work in another beach trip this year.




I don’t often do fan art, but in my house right now there’s an ongoing battle between two shows on Netflix–Kate & Mim Mim and Voltron. Madeline (age 2) loves “Kim-Kim” and the boys (6 & 8) are a little obsessed with Voltron. To be honest, I’ve hardly watched Kate & Mim Mim, and I haven’t the foggiest idea what’s going on with Voltron. He’s some kind of Transformer, right? No? Are you sure? Wait, what’s up with the pilots? And why does he have puppies on his hands and feet? Lions? No, I’m pretty sure they’re puppies.

Anyway, here’s MimTron, a happy compromise between the two. If anyone out there has connections and can make this show happen, my household would be grateful.

Apple Tree Farm


A page from a book I’m currently working on illustrating. I’ve actually been toiling over this project for a couple of years, trying new things, throwing out everything and starting over, going back to something I did before and then repeating the whole process. But every year I get a little closer to something that accomplishes what I want while reflecting where I want to be as an artist. Fortunately the author is a dear friend and, apparently, a very patient person.


Sinking Lighthouse

This week’s colour collective is Limpet Shell, and after missing several lovely colors because I’ve been too busy, I didn’t want to miss this one! We’re heading to Florida in a few days, and I was inspired by the story of the lighthouse restoration on St. George Island. According to authorities on the subject, the lighthouse was pulled off it’s foundation by “storms and natural erosion,” but I’m pretty sure this is what really happened.

limpet shell lighthouse

I know I’ve gushed about the Colour Collective community before, but I have really missed the challenge the last few weeks. One of my weak points is color, and forcing myself to think around a single color that I might not normally choose has been a terrific exercise. I don’t have time for as much art lately, but I’m always looking for ways to push out of my comfort zone and learn something new.

Dragons and Fairies

I’ve started participating in Colour Collective again, one of the loveliest artist communities out there, organized on twitter. Each week a new color is given, and a wide variety of illustrators create works of art using that color.

I’m creating some original artwork for a card game I’m developing, with the help of my creative boys, that is a bit of a role-playing, storytelling adventure, that’s easy for anyone to participate in. More on that soon. Here are a couple pieces I created recently.

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geranium dragon2

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